As expected, my wife and I have come to a point that most parents may go through :  choosing a big school.  our eldest son Jolo, is currently enrolled in a preparatory school.  The school currently only offer nursery to Kinder2.  So we’re looking into several big schools that he can or may possibly attend.  if you ask me I want him (and Lucas) to go to a school where he can be molded with a strong faith in God, grow with Good Morals and as some may say as cultured as a gentleman. embed in them the value of Work with Prayer. But I also want them to grow knowing that they are living in this world not just for themselves but for others as well.

i pray that they get into a school that will get them prepared for the real world. a school that will give them that edge.  So far we have a top 3 school in our list. we pray that Jolo gets in to one of them.



A child can ask questions that a wise man cannot answer – Author Unknown

Image  —  Posted: July 16, 2012 in Uncategorized

updates? well nothing much, except catching up with some friends over lunch or dinner, brushing up on my Photoshop skills if there were any 🙂 by the way Big thanks to uncle T for my new machine with Intel 2nd Gen i5 🙂


anyway my therapy is still ongoing, last time i was able to stack 13 cones out of 15 un-assisted, big thanks to my very patient therapists. i think i also drive better with lesser engine stall (manual tranny folks!) 🙂 my wife also noticed that i walk better now. oh and its quite funny how some of my friends get surprised when i order beer or alcoholic drink. they give me those wide- eye expressions. 🙂 Don’t worry, i don’t “drink ’til I’m blind” kind of way”. :p

Anyway, ’til my next post! Cheers!

i take 12tabs of these each day.  anyone out there who knows where i can source these at a cheaper price? please PM/DM me. thank you.

Just this weekend, we took Jolo to Shoemart, Makati to buy new school shoes.  He’s complaining that his old pair is already uncomfortable. “sikip na po ang shoes.” and since i also needed a new pair of sandals to fit in my orthoses, we went to the mall.  the men’s shoe dept.  was at the 2nd floor, Niña was suggesting i get off at Ace and take the elevator going to the second floor, meet them there so that it’ll be easier for me.  When we got their I said  I think i can manage the escalators inside the department store.  my occupational therapist has taught me a lot of pointers when riding the escalator and have even practiced with the escalators inside the hospital.  So with Ling,  my sister in law, she accompanied me going to the second floor. My heart pounding like the dragon dance drums, strong (right) leg first, strong (right) leg first! i kept reminding myself. (i am a “left leg first” person, blame CAT & ROTC training for that)  When we reached the second floor, I was so relieved. whew!! It was my first time to do it outside the hospital.  After that Ling and I had an “i-thought-you-knew-her” moment.  A woman, maybe in her mid-40’s came up to me and said with a big smile: “I’m so happy for you.  I’m so glad that you are walking!” she also said that she has a relative who’s 39 years old,  a stroke victim (mayba she thought that I was one as well), who chose to be bed ridden and would refuse to walk. Because of the adrenalin, all i can mutter was a “thank you po.” Never had a chance to ask her name, like she was in a hurry.  I looked at ling and told her: “Akala ko kilala mo?” Ling: akala ko nga friend mo e.”  After that i just thought, maybe another angel? If only i could talk to her relative…

anyway, back to conquering that escalator, i did it twice on that same day.  i felt so alive!  🙂  “ang babaw”,  you might say, but it just so mean so much to be able to do  these  things again after a long time thinking if i got to do it again, i can be back to normal again if i want to and i believe I’m getting there.  🙂

on my to do list when i get back to a 100%

  • drive the car again (to Baguio and back)
  • wash the car again
  • teach my kids how to swim
  • teach my kids to ride a bike
  • get my wife to run with me again.


“A Christian should be an Alleluia from head to foot.”
Saint Augustine

Thank You!!

Posted: December 31, 2011 in random entries, what's up? :) or down :(

Lord, thank you for giving me this year. It’s not what i expected but I think it made me a better person. Better in way that I value life more and that it is indeed too short. I have a new found respect for cancer patients who, like me , whatever our reasons may be, keeps on fighting this disease to stay alive for ourselves and for our loved ones. Thank you for giving me cancer as I believe it has renewed my faith and trust in you. It has made me and my family closer to you. It has made me and my family stronger as a whole. It brought me and my friends together to fight as one. And because of that me and my family felt that we were not alone in this battle, and realized that there are true angels among us, we just don’t notice it but they are everywhere–family, friends, work mates, co-parents, even strangers. It’s been a year of blessings if I may say so. Call me crazy but it really think this was a year of blessings. I pray that 2012 will be of more graces from You. That no one will undergo what we’ve been through. It’s been a tough 2011, but what the heck! I’ll take it any time!! Again thank you LORD!! Happy New Year!!!


follow up MRI

Posted: December 19, 2011 in Uncategorized

so i had my followup MRI last Saturday at St. Luke’s Hospital in Q.C.  As I posted on FB, Thank GOD that there is nothing negative  from the results. it’s practically the same results as my previous MRI from September.  That is good enough for me,  of course we were praying for clear zero tumor result but then, I’ll take it 😀 it’s not bad at all. could it be that “bwelo” lang for complete healing and getting back to normal?? talk about positive thinking 🙂  i still have to hear from my oncologist on thursday for my routine checkup.

After my MRI session Niña and I went straight to Makati for lunch  then Makati Medical for my PT and OT. my therapist said that MMC has procured Neuromove, it’s like TENS but better.  better because instead of letting the machine do all the work, neuro move wont work on your muscles unless you concentrate and think about what movement you’re about to do. I cant explain much but the site says it all. I hope they use it on me 🙂

angels in disguise

Posted: November 28, 2011 in Uncategorized

two Sundays ago, just after mass, a man, somewhat in his senior year approached me and said “God Bless you!” with a smile. i said the same in response then he added “i know how how you feel, i was in that same condition a few years back, i’ll include you in my prayers.  then he introduced himself and asked if my wife and i live in the same community. after our pleasantries we bade each other good bye and promised to pray for each other.

then just this morning another man, maybe in his mid 60’s said “you’ll recover” “i had your condition before now i am ok.”you’re young. just keep on exercising, do swimming and continue your physio (therapy). you’ll get better sooner than you think.” then the elevator door opened at my floor, said our goodbyes and thanked him.

these two men, who are totally strangers to me. talking to me like a coach, telling me something that came out from their experiences, giving me some sort of pep talk before a big event. gives me strength and a lot of good vibes! even without asking what my illness was.  giving me some kind of unsolicited support. priceless!

i want to think that they could be angels in disguise. even people who hold the door for me for 30secs. sometimes more. people who assists me in getting a cab.  some are strangers, some are not.

i thank God for giving us angels.

if you’re reading this then you’re one of them. And i want to say thank you!

para kay niña

Posted: October 27, 2011 in random entries

ikaw at ako

Ikaw at ako, pinagtagpo
Nag-usap ang ating puso
Nagkasundong magsama habangbuhay.

Nagsumpaan sa Maykapal
Walang iwanan, tag-init o tag-ulan
Haharapin bawat unos na mag-daan.

Sana’y di magmaliw ang pagtingin
Kaydaling sabihin , kayhirap gawin
Sa mundong walang katiyakan
Sabay natin gawing kahapon ang bukas.

Ikaw at ako, pinag-isa
Tayong dalwa may kanya kanya
Sa isa’t-isa tayo ay sumasandal

Bawat hangad kayang abutin
Sa pangamba’y di paaalipin
Basta’t ikaw, ako
Tayo magpakailanman.

Kung minsan ay di ko nababanggit
Pag-ibig ko’y di masukat
Ng anumang lambing
At kung magkamali akong ika’y saktan
Puso mo ba’y handang magpatawad

Di ko alam ang gagawin kung mawala ka
Buhay ko’y may kahulugan
tuwing ako’y iyong hagkan
Umabot man sating huling hantungan
Kapit-puso kitang hahayaan
Ngayon at kailanman
Ikaw at ako.

-titik at musika ni johnoy danao

so we had lunch today at a pizza joint with some of my friends just at the back of our office building. since i have a hard time walking on un-even pavement. my friend jomar served as my “human walking stick” (no pun joms 🙂 )we got to the joint in one piece,albeit slow. we waited for a table since the place was packed. after some waiting we got settled, enjoyed our lunch and as usual a hearty dose of laughs that if you were one of one of us in that circle an missed it. you’ll surely be the topic of conversation.



as we are about to leave i had to prop myself properly so that my right leg will support my weight as i stand up. yes, my left leg is still not 100% but its getting there. 🙂 as i stand up i notice a table of maybe 6 or 7 people, STARING at me like i’m some kind of freak show. from the moment i stood up, up until the moment we passed by their freakin’ table i can see that they were staring at me. and i’m like what the hell? insensitive fools. maybe they weren’t breast-fed or something.  is it the first time you saw someone like me? you like my limp? i am not dingdong dantes! hell no dumb ass! i wanted to get back at them and ask what their problem was. or maybe they were so dumb witted they may want to gamble like “i say 300 bucks that guy got stroke.” “nahh i bet 500 bucks he’s got cancer look at his hair!” and so on.

i really really wanted to get back at them but a voice inside my head says, maybe my tumour speaking, “no! they are not worth it. don’t ruin your wonderful afternoon”. one of the things i was taught was that it’s impolite to stare, whoever you’re staring at. respect whoever, whatever his/her personality might be, status in life and stuff.

back then and much even now, when i see someone in a wheel chair, walking with an assistive device or whatever, one look is enough and that’s what i call respect. enough to know that “maybe that guy has something that is none of my business”.

if you saw my picture on the papers why not approach me and ask, “are you the gray matters guy?” was that so hard? again be sensitive! , R E S P E C T, WE ARE NOT A FREAK SHOW!!